Saturday, January 30, 2010
I have had such an amazing week of greatness. I am now reminded seven days later that there is a real world and, oh yeah...my life to pre-amazing week of greatness still exists. Sometimes you just want to forget about the bad things in life. And then you realize they aren't bad.
I'm going to watch a movie. I'll expand more later
yours until it rains green apple jelly beans
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
hahahaha...thats really effin weird that I put this in my blog
Since I don't really know what college I want to go to...I want this. :)
Maybe when I get a spare twenty dollars I will buy it for myself...
I'm way too busy this weekend. I have to be in two places at once at two different times. shoot. SHOOT. SHOOT!
This was a pointless blog. Oh By The Way. My pencil broke, so what's the point?? AHHHhahhahahah.
yours until eyeballs are unnecessary
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Tiger this, Tiger that. I would be the first to say I'm TIRED OF TIGER. It's getting ridiculous. I'm sorry to bring it up again, but I'm watching ESPN and the news guy says that they heard from an unnamed source that Tiger Woods checked into a Sex Rehabilitation Facility in Mississipi.....but officials have not claimed he is there and neither has ESPN.
...So let me get this straight. The news is sharing stories that can be completely untrue. That's why I hate the news. Not that ESPN is news. My point was killed. Oh well, you get it.
That's all I have to say tonight. It's hard to put the rest of my thoughts into words. I feel so weird. Not sad but almost. But it's not a bad sad. And it's not an I miss you sad. But almost. Who do I miss. I don't even know anymore. I just miss the times where I had karate every thursday night and fractions for homework. It's impossible to figure out life, but I better figure something out with all this thinking I've been doing. It's time to prioritize. That's tough to do in this complicated society. Who matters in my life will prove it; have proven it. The things that matter don't really matter all that much. But they unfortunately do. That made sense to me, but to a sensible person I contradicted myself a bunch. What's the point.
Yours until money doesn't exist.
Monday, January 18, 2010
I've been thinking a lot about religion. It's so damn confusing. There's a bible with the "Word of God" and that's that. Live by the golden rule and don't judge people. Why does there have to be so much baggage. So many different denominations of christianity, of anything for that matter. People really do make it hard for a kid like me. kid. I mean I'm pretty sure I'm still a kid. I haven't hit 21 yet, so that means I'm still a kid. Anyway, what's with all these people saying "you'll know" when god comes into your life. YOU'LL just KNOW. WHATT? How is a kid supposed to understand/believe that. I'm yelling, someone's got the answers,but i'd rather think there's nothing to be found. What if I don't want to know and figure everything out. I mean its a scary though. I think it's perosnal. Everyone is different. Differnet beliefs work for different people and if they are satisfied and they live a healthy life, what is the problem there? I wish it was simple. Simplicity is impossible. People make life impossible. BUT ...on the other hand, if I think that way, then that's definitely how it's going to be. DUH it will be impossible and obnoxious. Like if I THINK I'll fail a test...I probably won't do all that well. It's all mental. Mind over matter. My grandma used to say that all the time. I miss her. We used to go on picnics.
On a higher note, I went on a picnic today at jarvis. It was nice. SUCH A BEAUTIFUL DAY. It wasn't as planned but it was still nice. Sitting in silence is not a bad thing. If it's a good kind of silence, the people have this sense of acceptance. Kinda like...who the hell cares if it's silent. I have nothing to say. That doesn't mean I'm boring...even though I am kind of boring. But, that's okay, who isn't a little boring sometimes?
I have to work on being a better sister...keep my end of the bargain. Not that being a sibling has to have a bargain. But I mean, in this case it does. Brady is a good brother. He's right all the time, it just gets on my nerves a bunch.
People need to stop being so fucking judgmental.
maybe I will tell you all about it when I'm
in the mood to lose my way with words...
I like being called beautiful.
Call it conceited or whatever. Just saying.
OH BY THE WAY.... I ate like between ten and fifteen cookies. It hurts so good. ....meaning I need to do some sit ups. Who cares, though. Its winter-almost-springtime. Probably not a good mind set but HEY, it works for me.
Ever know someone that's just so good that you feel vile most of the time....you realize you've been living your whole life being selfish and silly doing dumb things. And THEN you realize its all fake; all an act. Catherine may know more about life than she lets on. Come see the Foreigner. You'll know what I mean. Man that play is taking over my life, my mood. My character is an edgy, sarcastic, ex-debutante. I'm sorry to all of those who are affected that don't even read this block.
Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?
I'll come around eventually....always do.
Thanks to those who understand and do wait it out. That's the best kind of friend.
I love people. Even though sometimes I get confused....I really do love people. There is good in everyone. Believe it.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Friday, January 8, 2010
I decided to start this one off with some nice images. Found these on a website titled "WTF Photos From Old Times," and since I legitimately spent a good ten minutes on the site, I decided to share a few of my favorites.
Anywho, this week was average. First week back from break and I can't really complain at all. Life could be worse. The Foreigner is going okay. Pil says he thinks it has potential so that's gotta mean something. I'm actually not dreading rehearsals this time. I don't know if it's the cast or the show or both? Pleasant surprise.
Gage leaves tomorrow :( Christmas break was fun while it lasted. Good luck with your dream schedule! I will give you your homemade christmas present eventually when I finish it via snail mail. I have your address on my dresser so we're set.
I have the sniffles and I don't mind but I'm too lazy to get up and get a tissue. Don't you hate when that happens?
I am not feeling this blog.
Yours until the moon turns purple
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
"Crasher Seal Photobombs Group of Penguins"
So today was average. Not bad...not good. I'm trying so hard to follow through with my resolution of not getting defensive and annoyed. It's not easy. I'm tired. I'm glad people are getting blogs. And I'm finding people's blogs. I enjoy reading them.
My day wasn't really notable at all that I can think of. Nothing happened out of the ordinary. I turned extremely RED today in class but that happens to me a lot. Some kid was cheating on a test with my textbook because he asked me for it at the beginning of class and then teach was like MAH MAH MAHHH marissa's book! then everyone stared at me and pointed out that I was turning red. That didn't help. I just got redder. One hispanic kid even yelled rojo. Idiots. all of them. Or maybe I was the idiot for giving the kid my textbook. Who really cares.
So... There's this thing that I have thought for a long time ever since like freshman year but I convinced myself I was crazy. But now it's like ...the cool thing to think so I can't think it anymore because thats what everyone's thinking. Knew this would happen. CHILD.
Milk chug is gross. I mean I'm sorry. If I didn't hate throw up, I would be all for it. I mean who isn't up for a little friendly, chunky competition?
Shoot. I have to go write an essay. Dr. R says the darndest things. Let's start a show of all the fun things she says. But wait we can't do that because ...we just can't. I'm lazy. My eyelids are getting heavy.
Yours until pigs fly,
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
I can't go to disney world.
Today sucked. You know the feeling you get when you are just so frustrated that you want to yell and scream? Well I should feel like that but I'm just in one of those moods where I don't even feel like it. I'm glad I can type in this lovely blog because you know when you talk about things out loud that you're really frustrated with you almost cry? I do at least...so I don't even have to worry about crying because my fingers are doing all the work.
That's what she said.
So...how is your day? Hopefully great because the weather is really nice. I love the brisk cold air and the clear blue sky. Those are the best kinds of days-next to autumn days that is- where you just want to take a stroll and keep walking. and walking. and then eventually you wind up back where you started. ...where there's a nice fire in the fireplace and dinner in the oven that you can smell. My, my. That's the perfect day. Then you plop on the couch in front of the fire and sit. Doing whatever you want. Telephone call, TV, computer, cards. yeahhhhhhhhhh. That's the life.
Picture of the day:
It would have been fun.